bax (or baxishta if he’s feeling uppity) does not consider himself fully awakened, but knows for sure that he’s recognized glimpses of the self. He says this puts him in an awkward position, and insists on starting off with this apology,
if what i’ve seen is true
then i’m a hypocrite
every time i speak about it
no better than the man who
having awoken briefly from his dream
rushes back to tell his friends what he saw
“you’re all in my mind”
he informs them
and they laugh at him twice
once for being obviously wrong
and once for being right
and therefore talking to himself
my only defense is that
even hypochondriacs do get sick
and even hypocrites do awaken briefly
bax’s motto is “self is solid”, and he considers himself a student of Ramana Maharshi, whose favorite description of the self was “a dense mass of self-knowledge”. he considers himself a post-new age thinker, and feels that most of what is discussed today goes only halfway to Shankara’s great ‘three laws of self-knowledge’. Specifically, much is said about consciousness but not very much about the self itSelf.
In order to try to put readings and experiences into a context for himself, he developed a graphic model which he calls The Cycle of Self-Knowledge. The gist of it is that every thought passes through all the stages of finding and losing self-knowledge, and that it’s easy to identify milestone experiences along the cycle, which may make it easier to recognize the frequent glimpses of the self which we’re all having but which usually go by unnoticed.
PDF File: All aboard for a trip around the Cycle of Self-Knowledge. We’ll pause at stations like ‘The Life-Cycle of a Ghost’ and ‘The Me-Shaped Balloon’ to see how life looks from there. I hope you enjoy it, and your feedback is always welcome. bax
Interview recorded 2/17/2010.
Video and audio below. Audio also available as a Podcast.