Raymond Schumann is a fifth-generation carpenter with a high school education. A Roman Catholic upbringing left him sexually repressed. Adolescence left him a Soldier of Christ gone AWOL.
In his twenties, he learned about dissociative disorder. The theory explained much. Help was not thick on the ground and ripe in the pod. Not in those days. A shrink who claimed to treat multiple personalities endangered his career. Schumann was on his own. He named the self who thwarted his desires Holdfast.
Schumann knew spiritual consciousness was essential to healing. That only made things worse. He’d watched guru after roshi disgrace themselves. There was nothing to trust there. The more he sought healing, the worse Holdfast trashed him.
Eventually, Schumann was desperate enough to say, “This has to get better. I don’t care what it costs. This has to get better.” At that instant, he suffered a Kundalini awakening. Never trust a Goddess. She opened the door to a year of hell. A year leading to ego death. A year leading to nondual awareness.
Things only got worse from there.
If you would like to contact Raymond, here’s his email address.
Interview recorded February 28, 2021
Video and audio below. Audio also available as a Podcast.
YouTube Video Chapters:
- 00:00:00 – Introduction to Buddha at the Gas Pump
- 00:02:46 – The Self and Spiritual Consciousness
- 00:05:20 – Exploring Spiritual Interests in Youth
- 00:08:29 – The Self that Thwarted Desires
- 00:12:35 – The Impact of Kundalini Awakening on Daily Life
- 00:17:07 – Naming the Inner Drives “Holdfast”
- 00:21:35 – The Wrecking Ball of Kundalini
- 00:27:27 – Losing the Ego and Sense of Self
- 00:32:18 – The localized quality of experience and the ego construction
- 00:36:35 – The Role of Language in Human Existence
- 00:41:06 – The Evolution and Development of Ego
- 00:45:43 – The Complexity of the Ego and Ego Death
- 00:51:52 – The experience of self-recognition
- 00:56:25 – Liberation from Ego Holons
- 01:02:41 – Lack of Free Will
- 01:07:01 – First Do No Harm and Meeting Swami Muktananda
- 01:10:35 – Variables and the Flow of Shakti
- 01:13:39 – Meeting Bubastis
- 01:16:20 – The Cat with Psychic Inflation
- 01:19:10 – The Wisdom Download and Preparation
- 01:22:36 – Understanding the Clue
- 01:25:55 – The Risks of Playing with Powers
- 01:29:24 – The Chakra System and Ego Death
- 01:33:50 – The Importance of Writing Things Down
- 01:37:08 – The Power of Journaling and Meditation
- 01:41:30 – The Torture of Holdfast
- 01:45:30 – The Presence of God in Our Lives
- 01:48:39 – The meaning of “beyond the PALE”
- 01:53:53 – The Potential Impact of Spiritual Awakening and Transformation
- 01:58:18 – Closing Remarks and Contact Information
- 02:00:46 – Farewell and Thank You
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