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Ameeta Kaul Interview

RICK: Welcome to Buddha at the Gas Pump. My name is Rick Archer, Buddha at the Gas Pump is an ongoing series of conversations with spiritually Awakening people. We’ve done nearly 600 of them now. And if this is new to you, and you’d like to check out previous ones, please go to bat gap comm bat gap and look under the past interviews menu. Also check out the other menus on the site, there’s a bunch of different things, audio podcasts, and so on. And maybe I’ll say this at the beginning, but it helps the YouTube channel to have a lot of subscribers. And if we break the 100,000 mark, we will get some kind of extra support and all from YouTube. So if you feel like subscribing, click the subscribe button. And also that little bell that shows up after you click the subscribe button if you click that, and then you’re kind of like a super subscriber or something. And then they notify you of everything that I do, which is just one interview a week. I’m also this whole enterprise this program is made possible through the support of appreciative listeners and viewers. So if you appreciate it, and would like to help support it, there’s a PayPal button on every page of the website. And there’s also a donation page on the site, which explains options other than PayPal. My guest today is a Mita call. I’ve known Amina for a long time, kind of remotely, I used to be on her mailing list, I’m not sure if she’s still sending it out, or if I somehow slipped off it. But she was sending out these great poems, and I’m really not much of a poetry reader. I’ve always found that my mind tends to wander a bit when I’m reading poetry, but I really found her is very readable and enjoyable. So maybe we’ll talk about that a little bit. And rather than read a prepared bio, I’m just going to let you know, meet and I’ll start talking, I’m just gonna let her introduce herself and her background. And we’ll just take it from there. So welcome, Anita.

AMEETA: Thank you so much. Glad to be here. Yeah, good to have you to have to be here.

RICK: You live in the Boston area, which is not that relevant, but good area, both like the Boston area at some adventures there. And so how did we end up having you on this show? What? What is it about your life? That I obviously I know the answer to this, but for the sake of listeners, what is it about your life that brought you to this? Point?

AMEETA: Yeah, yeah, thank you. Um, well, you know, I grew up in India, and I came to the US settled here in 1997. And shortly after that, very recent, 2022 years ago, yeah. And my father, almost as soon as I arrived in the US, he was diagnosed with cancer. And then very shortly after that, he passed away. And there was something about the timing of that diagnosis that just hit me so hard, because I had this absolute knowing inside of me that he was going to pass from it. And it was devastating to say the least, it tested me to my full limits, there was nothing I could summon within me to deal with that. And it just in a sense, now looking back, I can say it kind of broke me open in a in a way. It sent me scurrying off to find, you know, books and just things that I could read to feel a little peace inside to make peace with what was I knew was going to happen. And a year after that he passed away. And the shift which happened then sort of just kept failing its way in my life and introduced me to more and more of that depth.

RICK: Yeah, it’s not the first time I’ve heard somebody say that the the death of a loved one, sometimes quite a sudden and unexpected death. really cracked them open and somehow kick started a spiritual journey or deepen their spiritual journey. Yeah. And then you have much exposure to spirituality in India, or didn’t it interest you that much? Yeah.

AMEETA: Well, you know, I come from a family which has an odd mix. Well, not so all great, actually. It’s been great for me. So on the one side, we very sort of rationally scientific, you know, a lot of intellectual curiosity. And then there was the other side which there was a fair amount of a devotion, devotion and to God to a sense of God as also a sort of philosophical curiosity. So I grew up with these kinds of threads in my life. And you know, I found that an on my thought they really helped me and came together in ways that were very sort of useful for me. So this the exposure, I think, also part of growing up in India is because there are just so many influences all around you. You know, it’s feels almost like this. Spirituality is suffused in the air in many subtle ways that you kind of end up imbibing you don’t even know you’re imbibing.

RICK: Yeah, it’s very true. The first time I went to India, I guess it was 1980 or 79, just landing in the New Delhi airport, which is not the most spiritual spot in the country. But um, you know, it’s coming out of the airport onto the sidewalk, there’s just something in the air, just kind of like, wow, you know, I’ve heard about this, but I could really feel it. There’s just something in the air. Yeah. Besides the pollution? I mean, there was some kind of spiritual presence or something in the country.

AMEETA: Yeah, yeah. And I have a lot of people in my life, my grandmother’s to start with, most importantly, who really have that devotional aspect, which drew me so much as a child because I would sit in their labs and listen to the most amazing stories of the saints and India, and you know, all these wonderful tales from the Ramayana, and the Mahabharata and everything. And I used to be fascinated, I could listen for hours, and every time every time they visited, I will be pulling up their stories to, you know, to have one more session, and you know, so yeah, there’s a way in which all of this can really get inside. Yeah,

RICK: that’s great. So, not too many of us have that kind of thing in the West, at least not in, in your tradition, but um, I kind of wish I had. I mean, when I was a kid, we were dragged to church once a week, and I had no idea what it was about, and it just kind of ruined my Sundays. And, you know, it was not until quite a few years later that I realized, oh, that’s what it’s about.

AMEETA: You know, we had our share of that, like, I remember, as a child not being a fan of we didn’t have too many ritualistic things going on in my home. But I was never a fan of the rituals. So I probably felt that way about the rituals, you know, I didn’t want any part of Yeah, yeah. The stories were great. But

RICK: so once your father died and gave you this jolt, what was the sequence of events that, you know, kind of proceeded from?

AMEETA: Yeah. So I think at that time, it really kind of shifted the locus of my life in ways that only registered in my awareness much later, but I had come here, I just arrived in the country for a job here, a job opportunity in the US and my family, my husband, and my three and a half year old daughter, we all decided to come to the US and we thought it was going to be a five year adventure. We would go

RICK: back to India, what kind of job what kind of work are you in?

AMEETA: I was in those days, I was in technology in business automation systems. And I was trained in something in my job in India that was really sort of picking up as a market worldwide. And so that’s how we came here. So you know, it was kind of a strange period, because on the one hand, I had a very, I had to focus, I had to do my, you know, pay attention to my career. And almost immediately after landing here, you know, with my dad’s death, it was kind of a very challenging place for me to negotiate those two worlds. So I ended up spending the next four or five years, sort of nose down in my career. And then it just became too much and I I started to realize that my heart was not in it, that something was off. And, you know, I tasted some success and that just got me it just, it just felt hollow Rick, it was like, on the one hand, like I was saying, my academic conditioning from India, and even some to some degree, my family conditioning. I was told that success was a great thing to have and material success. And it felt to me like oh, this is going to answer some questions is going to deliver something and even my first real taste of it kind of left me feeling less than a really underwhelmed. Yeah. And I think from that point, it was like a U turn. It was just like, No, I can’t my whole life cannot be about more of this. Yeah. You know, and so when I’m glad it happened like that, you know, because there was an intelligence to it. It kind of exhausted something in me. And then I remember this one time and I had to tell my husband Look, I am not able to lift the phone to make and I by that time, I was running my own small business. And I said I I cannot do this anymore. I just need to have I don’t know how long to read and to figure out what’s going on with me and he was very supportive. And that’s exactly what I did. So I began to read everything I could lay my hands on that my, my, my mind was seeking to have by way of answers, and I’ve had psychology and philosophy and spirituality and all kinds of things. And so I came upon a vast array of people. The one that really struck a chord for me back then, was Ken Wilber. You know the thing about Ken Wilber? See? So, I mean, I think that the I wouldn’t, most people would agree. He’s brilliant. He’s absolutely brilliant. And, you know, there was this, unbeknownst to me, there was this kind of, kind of like a thing, almost a little battle waging inside of me in between my I guess my intellectual side and my spiritual side. And which I was not very conscious of till, till cam came into my life. And and I realized what he showed me was that, that you could, you know, somebody I admired so much, was effortlessly including spirituality into the, into his language into his life. And speaking of it so eloquently, in a way that appeals to both both my my brain and my heart.

RICK: Yeah, he’s good at reconciling those things.

AMEETA: So that started to really, that was important for me to come to that point in myself. And very shortly after that, I kind of came to the end of my time with him, by which time I first heard Adi Shanti, thanks to a friend of mine who introduced me to him. And the first time I heard him, it wasn’t like, he is my teacher. Absolutely. He has been my teacher all these years. But that first time I heard him, there was a resonance, but it wasn’t like, I knew this is my guru or my teacher. But I realized after two months, gosh, I’ve been listening to this person for eight to 10 hours every day. And, you know, so that’s what I said, there’s more more to this than just then what seems apparent. And of course, there was no looking back from them. I’ve just been so blessed to have him in my life group. As my teacher,

RICK: I was listening to him on I got the idea to do this show. I was I was out in the garage working on a Bowflex machine, you know, one of those exercise machines and listening to audio, and some other thought popped into my head. I should do an interview show. Yeah, one thing. Oh, yeah. So you would still consider a junior teacher?

AMEETA: Yes, I do. I think he’s my trail guy. You know, he’s, he’s off. As far as I see it, he’s up ahead of the journey. And he just turns around and keeps sharing things from up ahead. Which are so useful and amazing, you know, so yeah, it’s just,

RICK: I like the way I do. You know, it’s pretty cool. Dog is having a coughing fit. And she has a problem with coughing. Okay. I like the way well, he’s very down to earth, and just sort of what you see is what you get kind of a guy, whether you’re with them in a public situation, or a private situation. And I think that’s one reason people like him so much. And, you know, he doesn’t kind of whitewash or his life and try to make it any more glorious than him. He’s just, he see, what you see is what you get, as I said, and but he also has this open ended attitude, like, you know, curious, always exploring and learning his house is full of books with little book tabs in them. And, you know, he’s always kind of like, you know, what’s next and, and, you know, open ended inquiry kind of thing.

AMEETA: Yeah, it’s great. Yeah. I just love that about him. He’s, like, he said, he’s just so grounded. You know, it’s such a beautiful thing to, to have. Because, you know, I’ve been exposed to so many as as many as all of us have many spiritual teachers, and it always feels like that, you know, they may not be holding it like that in them, but it can, you know, just because of all the trappings that one sees, yeah, it can come across as something that’s special. And with ADIA, that thing gets busted right off the bat, because, yes, you know, he just, I don’t know, he’s just so grounded. And real. Yeah.

RICK: So that’s an interesting we can even dwell on that point for a minute. I mean, on the one hand, you know, if you met the Buddha was you supposed to kill him if you meet him, but according to that, but Christ or somebody would even say, Hey, man, how you doing? You know, like, Whoa, let’s have a beer or something. Yeah, there would be a certain deferential pneus different different, certain deference a certain respect and in each When, you know, devotion and honor and you just don’t use their, their personality warrants that. But on the other hand, some teachers seem to get off on that, you know, and to try to cultivate it around themselves and to encourage students to, you know, worship them or kiss their feet or, or whatever. And then the dynamic starts to get a little unhealthy, I think, a little little weird. And, you know, obviously, devotion is a good thing. You spoke about that earlier in about your earlier life. And we don’t want to squelch that. So there’s a kind of a balancing act, I think, between, you know, respect and devotion, and yet, kind of a healthy relationship with a teacher, both for the student and for the teacher. Who if he or she isn’t really as mature as, as he or she might be, could himself get warped or corrupted by all that adulation?

AMEETA: Yeah, I couldn’t agree more. I think that what my relationship with Adi as a student has been, is to kind of, you know, I recognized actually, it was actually just watching one interview you did with I think her name is Jan Fraser, but I could be wrong about

RICK: Jan, she lives up in Vermont, I think not far from you.

AMEETA: Yeah, I think not far from me, right. And there was this episode where the thing you did with her where she talks about her fear dropping out of her system, this was many, many years ago, and I happen to attend an evening Satsang with her in the Boston area. And, you know, fear has been a thing for me growing up quite a lot. And so this really drew me, you know, when she talked about this, and I remember being at her satsang. And midway through it, I just had this big insight come into me, which was like, What am I doing here? You know, because she was describing this story, which is quite, which is quite an unusual story about how it suddenly dropped out of our system. And there was something in me that was attaching to that as a way of dealing with my fear. And I suddenly realized, wait a minute, you know, you’re the ways in which I’m putting that possibility away from me, because I’m associating it with such an in a story that is not likely to repeat for me as it was, as it played out for her. And

RICK: was it I remember a story about where she was in a canoe or something with her husband? And they almost drowned or could have drowned it? Was that was that the story? Or do you know,

AMEETA: I don’t remember the details of the story. All I remember is that she had this big fear, and then almost in one minute, or something very short, you know, something happened, and that fear just dropped out. Yeah. And I could even be wrong about the name. But anyways, that’s the, you know, that’s the thing that gripped me in that whole thing and the whole story. And this is what I realized, I realized that house a house is connected to Yeah, because I wanted to say that there’s a way in which we project things on the outside, and that are ours to own if when we are ready to own them. And for me, this was what came to the fore with audio because like I trusted him completely in what he was presenting as what he was presenting resonated with me. So I think what happens happened for me was I said, Okay, I’ll get you hold what you are, what you point to be mine, and I know, to be mine, you hold it for me, because I’m unable to do so for now.

RICK: You know, clarify that a little bit. Well,

AMEETA: the knowing that I am this present, being awareness?

RICK: And what do you mean, asking him to hold it?

AMEETA: Because I could see it more clearly at that time in him than I was able to see it in my

RICK: eyes. See what you mean. So yeah, okay, good. And so

AMEETA: it was like I, you know, I almost was saying, I say to him that you are my teacher, you carry this for both, for now, because I’m not able to for whatever reason, and you know, and that that’s the path where I became ready to own to take back that which he was holding for him which I asked him to, in becoming his student

RICK: you asked him verbally or just

AMEETA: mentally that’s how I see it, it’s likely you know, we’re using two ways of, of keeping this our own true nature away from us. We’re either projecting or procrastinating

RICK: and why would we want to do that? Because we would have to face a fear if we wanted to plow through the fear and get actually get to the living experience of it.

AMEETA: Yeah, I think there’s something in us that’s perhaps not ready right off the bat to all This thing that is so feels so immense. So out of the bounds of our own reference frame, you know, and we get struck by all manner of fears, like, you know, fear of fear of being much greater than we thought, fear of being nothing. You know, depending on how we’re receiving this, there can be so many different fears. And we’re so conditioned to think of ourselves in a certain way to perceive and receive ourselves in a certain way that we’re afraid to budge that move that, and then comes along this, this whole spiritual thing that’s threatening to undercut all of our ideas of ourselves, it’s a big thing, right to, to kind of grapple with. So I think it’s a, it’s like a journey of being prepared. And it’s wonderful to have a teacher who will not only hold it for you, but then this kind of circles back to what we were saying. Because it felt to me, like my teacher held it for me with the, with the clear knowledge between us that one day, I would hold it for me. And he encouraged that all through. So whereas you know, you can there are teachers out there that that might even want to, you know, everything’s fine, it also comes, but, you know, sometimes there can be situations where they can come up possessiveness about that? Because it’s kind of enjoyable to have that, that that status, perhaps I don’t know, you know, I

RICK: know what you mean, I know what you’re saying. I think listeners will too. In other words, what’s kind of related to what I was saying earlier, but I think some teachers make an effort to reinforce the sort of Ducato dichotomy between their status and their, their students status. And ultimately, I think a teacher should want to have their students achieve as much if not more than whatever they’ve achieved in terms of their awakening. Why not? You know, what’s the whole point of it otherwise?

AMEETA: Exactly. Yeah. You know, teachers, custodians, I see them as custodians of, of what the student has not yet realized.

RICK: Yeah. I mean, whoever Einsteins professors were, they should be pleased with themselves for having turned out. Although I think they thought of him as sort of a troublemaker, which also is a relevant point, actually. Because, I mean, sometimes, you know, if a person is conformist in their thinking, and just sort of whatever the teacher says, I mean, this is another one of those paradoxes. On the one hand, you know, you want to sort of align your, your thinking with that of the of the master if you’re in a guru disciple relationship. But on the other hand, there comes a time when the chick hatches from the egg and needs to leave the incubator, and very often a certain kind of independence of thinking, or almost you might even say a little rebelliousness begins to bubble up.

AMEETA: Yeah, yeah, I agree. It’s like, this idea of sovereignty, you know. And to me, that’s very much part of the art of owning one’s true nature is that I think that at some point, it does, it does kind of form into the sense of sovereignty, like, you know, and so long as one is, you know, at least for me, the way this played out was, I always had that inkling of a sovereignty, you know, all along, even though I was a student of yours, not least because he kept pointing to it. Yeah. You know, so there was not this idea that I was going to follow everything that he said, because everything was being checked out in my own experience. And ultimately, it was my own experience that, you know, that proved it to me if something was resonant for me or not. I found this, this to be kind of a useful way to, to orient in my relationship as in as a student. Yeah.

RICK: There’s a great quote from the Buddha, which you just more or less paraphrased, where he says, Don’t believe anything, just because somebody says it, you know, even if I say it, you know, you should check it out in your own experience in your own understanding. Basically, that’s a paraphrase, but yeah, exactly. Yeah. Because I mean, it’s important point, we’re dwelling on this thing about sovereignty and owning it and so on. You know, essentially, you said it was going to hold it for you for a while, but eventually, I mean, no one can live your enlightenment for you any more than somebody can eat dinner for you, you know, ultimately, it has to be your experience.

AMEETA: Exactly. Exactly. Yeah. And it’s not as satisfying even if someone could hold I mean, decided.

RICK: Like with the dinner analogy, you could starve to death while there’s eating for you. Yeah, yeah. So it kind of sounds like maybe there was a process whereby the sovereignty shifted, you know, it kind of shifted from audio holding it to you holding it yourself.

AMEETA: Yeah, it really did. And was there

RICK: any kind of abrupt shift? Or was it more like a thief in the night creeping up?

AMEETA: No thief in the night? The the night for me. You know, it really, it really was a very gradual thing. And, I mean, it was punctuated with, with experiences and with some things that seemed, you know, very stark and something that one can actually point to, but for the most part, I would say that the journey has been such that the contrast was never between one day or one week, and the next week was never so dramatic, that, you know, it presented as this mind blowing experience that I could recognize. So things were kind of like, recognized in retrospect, sometimes, like,

RICK: no, that’s really well put, yeah, that’s, that’s my experience, too. It’s, you know, there have been some, you know, kind of cool experiences along the way. But basically, in terms of the, you know, whatever the stable state, is, it’s always just sort of been a, you know, an incremental maturation of sorts.

AMEETA: Yeah, let you know, in 2017, I was drawn to go to Taos. And it was an interesting time, because I had reached a sort of a point in my spiritual life in my life in general, where I felt like I needed not just an internal change, but sort of an external change. You know, I needed to go and so I spoke with a friend of mine, you know, how Susanna Yeah. She She said, Yeah, and so she suggested Taos to me

RICK: and referring to cheat live there already, then.

AMEETA: No, she doesn’t California. She’s there now. Yeah. Yeah, she’s in Dallas now, right. And I hadn’t heard of Dallas even before but, and she described the Neem Karoli Baba ashram to me, which is there. And, you know, there’s a Hanuman temple and so on. And so I did a little quick search and something about how a man’s eyes really drew me. And I decided that I was going to do that it sounded really exciting and out of my comfort zone, and everything. And things, just what, and I landed up at this Ashram and I did save up there for a month, and then I sort of stayed at another place for another month. But that’s where I had an experience, which kind of was the was something that showed me the cumulative effect of what had happened in the prior years, you know, in a way that I could not miss, you know, because there can be, I feel like there can be changes and shifts happening in one, especially if one is on the gradual path that sometimes one is not consciously aware, aware of, you know, like, and then something might have to come to, to bring it into perspective, because then what started happening? Okay, so I’ll share a little bit about what happened is Taos Mountain is where the town of Taos gets its name from, and she is in magnificent being Dallas, to me. And every evening, I was called just I was drawn to go out for a walk. And there’s a place about a mile from the temple where I was used to, I was staying, where I, you know, I could see her at a distance across the middle, and used to be really powerful one hour for me as I’ve been walking up and down and just getting Darshan from Taos mountain, you know, literally, and, and there was something going on between us, it was just so powerful. And what I received was this, this, you know, she actually called me to, to, I mean, it’s kind of hard to describe, because it didn’t happen. Well, a lot of this became clear once I started writing about it, and so on,

RICK: this is the way Ramadan naturally, you know, similar relationship, it sounds like,

AMEETA: yeah, this just, it was just so beautiful. And she called me to see the mountain to own the mountain in myself. Interesting. And, and now, when I look back at everything that happened in those months, and following those months, I can really see how that was sort of a way for me to recognize and to articulate even to myself the shifts that had been happening to the through these all those years, and sort of a sort of almost like a recognizing of the sovereignty that had sort of bloomed in a way that I could I could, I could really start looking at and becoming conscious of, and then when when when one becomes conscious of it, I think one can join it more consciously. There’s a you can the gain is upping itself in some way.

RICK: Yeah, so let me see if and get you to be a bit more explicit about all that. So, you know, we, you know, you were on the path for a long time, there was all this, you know, gradual incremental growth. And but, you know, you don’t really notice it like the old, I hate this analogy, but the frog in water that gradually heats up, you know, and it doesn’t jump out because the water is heating gradually. And, and some people have dramatic breakthroughs. So I’ve talked to a lot of them. But I think the vast majority of people, it’s just like we said, you know, this is gradual development. And maybe sometimes it’s pretty fast development. But still, it’s not like explosions, you know, there’s just sort of this continuous growth. But if you could leap suddenly, from, like, if I speaking my own experience, if I were to suddenly leap from where I am now, where function now to the way I did 4050 years ago, you know, even though I might have been happy and functional 4050 years ago, relatively, I don’t think I could, I’d probably die from the shock of it, because the contrast would be so great. And And conversely, 4050 years ago, if I could have leaped to where I am now, probably when the man will function, because I would have been lying on the ground drooling with bliss. But but you know, you sort of develop as you go along and you acclimate you acclimate over and over again, and, but so in terms of your own situation here, when the the relationship with the mountain or whatever happened, there in Taos happened, it sounds like it sort of brought the whole thing into focus, and you were able to get your bearings relative to, you know, the journey you had been on. So could you elaborate on that a little bit more?

AMEETA: Sure, I can try. What kind

RICK: of changes did you suddenly finally realize that you had undergone for instance,

AMEETA: let me see how that wants to sort of share. So just prior to my going to Taos, I just been coming out of a four year illness, quite a grave illness. And it would, the pattern would be that I would fall very badly sick for about four to five months in the year. And then it would kind of wane, and then the cycle would repeat. And when I say very bad, it was really bad. Like, in many ways. So it was one aspect of it was an extreme form of eczema. Uh huh. And then there were other things going on. But it was skinny. That’s good. Yeah, so thank you. Yeah, but you know, it was kind of really pretty rough it to the point where I used to, you know, and this was my learning curve, I was kind of having to really well, for me, it was about really coming into my body, much more, you know, what the illness did for me was for me to turn my attention towards form. Until then you’re just before I was a little disembodied, and you know, I was brewing sort of the emptiness thing was much more prominent for me. And then this illness really got my attention in a way that it took me deeper and deeper, because, you know, there was nothing really that was a cure for it, you know, everyone I learned to just said, we can manage it, that’s the best we can do. And so, all I really did in that, in those months was to be in sort of contemplation and meditation and inquiry all the time. You know, that’s, that’s because I didn’t have the energy to do much outside. So, it took me really deep and it allowed me to see, you know, that what was wanting to return to the body to this body. And that was, at once really difficult, but very beautiful, you know, beautiful in the sense of how I could just, everything started to become visceral and embodied and just so gritty, you know, just like real, and I could feel the joy emanating, you know, whereas I used to, perhaps, consciously and mostly unconsciously, look upon body as a theater of suffering. Transformed, it became this joy started coming into the picture unexpectedly, and I began to look upon body as as this wonder, wonderful thing and theater of joy and full of the soul, Temple of the soul, and it just came online in such a big way for me and and then came the call to go to Taos and I think what happened in Taos was I got, I got in touch with larger body, my larger body physical, my larger physical body, you know, and I was really deeply called to Mother Nature on that trip in a way that I’ve never been called before I grew up in urban Mumbai, Bombay, in India, surrounded by concrete structures mostly and generally have a close relationship with nature. But in that trip that really changed and I became so attuned to so many things differently. Mother Nature, in my law, what I’m calling my larger body. And I saw that I saw my illness in a different way. And I saw, you know, these things of how, how, what, what had been seen or or, you know, recognized wanted to start being embodied in the body in life, in this real way, I came into contact with that, so viscerally with that experience with with a mountain. Am I going along the lines of how what do you want to share,

RICK: ya know, whatever comes out,

AMEETA: you want to draw out

RICK: your, yeah, we’ll draw out more, but you’re making sense. And I guess the thought that comes to mind as you’re speaking, is that I was kind of thinking different things as you’re speaking. It’s kind of like, you know, the thing, some people, everything has to balance out in the end, you know, we spoke with Ken Wilber earlier, and he has his idea of lines of development, you know, we have all these different lines of development, and some people’s lines are stretched out this way, and others are stretched out that way, different, you know, intellect, or body or heart or senses, or different facets of our makeup. And but everything ultimately, I think, I think evolution force of evolution impels us to advance all these things, and, and have them all kind of come into balance. So we’re not really stretched, you know, with one way out in front, and the other is all dragging behind. And, you know, so what you’re saying about coming into the body, somebody else might say the opposite, they were too much in the body, and they needed to sort of get into the spirit more and, you know, into the transcendent, or whatever. Anyway, that’s the kind of thoughts that what you were saying, triggered in me.

AMEETA: Yeah, that, you know, what I’ve come to see in retrospect, about my my life is that there was a, I think, I came into this life with this sense of emptiness. That’s what it feels like, right now. Looking back on, you know, and just seeing how things unfolded for me. And I just feel like my, you know, that this lifetime, if we want to call it that has been about, you know, about being this coming into form just about coming into form in the fullest, deepest possible way. That’s what it seems like my life journey this life journey has been about. And, you know, and that’s, I can see why I was drawn to audio, because for me, he represents this emptiness and form, you know, I get the most clearest transmission of that from him. And so there’s no one, you know, it’s not, it’s no wonder that I was drawn to his teachings. But, so I hear what you’re saying. And I, you know, there was obviously a sense in the human way that, you know, there was this body, and you know, all of that. So, it might be, like, what you’re saying that there can be a point in the journey where your form is form. And that’s, that’s what you’re aware of, mostly, which is your form,

RICK: people say, I am this, this meat puppet, and

AMEETA: this is what I am this mind body thing complex. Yeah. And then you can go down, you know, and then the first part is where you get stripped of that idea of yourself as form and come to something which is much more subtle, or all the way down to empty emptiness. And then you pick back up because that’s, that’s how the journey goes. If you pursue you know, if you go on further, right, I mean, where you come full circle, and, and what what was recognized as the, as that deep, subtle self, starts to come back into form. And so suddenly, it played out like that, for me in the human level, obviously. But like I said, it feels to me like I was, even as a child, I have this, I don’t know how to describe it. And that’s going to be part of what I’m going to be sitting with for my, for my next, you know, like, I want to write about this and allow it to sort of form itself into words. But I suspect I’m not the only one for for whom this is happening. And I would love to be able to articulate it in a way that perhaps others can relate with, and maybe look at their own journey from that perspective. So it was kind of feeling like my human form, even at the time when I felt just when I didn’t have any knowledge of emptiness. It just I had a very sort of fun, ambiguous relationship with form in general. And so when the when audio started, you know, when when I came into his meditation tech leak I was like I took to it like a fish to water. It was just something felt very comfortable with that emptiness thing all along. And then like so. But so then for me, it was much more about coming back coming into body and, and it was slow, but that’s what the direction seemed to be for me to, to becoming into body more and more and more and more. Yeah, you know, and that sense of like, you know the need to come back I had a treasure it’s kind of

RICK: sounds like he might have been a shoe Nevadan in your past life or something, you know, a Buddhist monk who who emphasized emptiness, emptiness, emptiness, you know. And then I’ve just been taking some classes from Swami sobre P Ananda. And he talks about these two tracks of philosophy that go back, you know, 1000s of years between the people who sort of emphasized fullness poor Nevada and poor Nevadans, and then the shoe Nevadans who emphasized emptiness. And they’re kind of flip sides of the same coin, because you could look at it either way, you know that saying fullness is emptiness. Emptiness is what Form is emptiness, emptiness is form. Yeah, so you can see it either way. But I think sometimes people get too much emphasis on one or the other, and they lose the ability to see it both ways.

AMEETA: Right? Absolutely. And, you know, that’s been a very, very key thing for me. Like, this has been the mantra that’s been playing out in me, which is emptiness and form this form this Form is emptiness.

RICK: Voice, that’s God.

AMEETA: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And I hadn’t heard this till audio introduced it to me. But as soon as he said it, it felt so resonant in me, you know, it was just like, wow, I have known this, like, you know, and it has, it has guided my journey. I feel like that’s been kind of the, you know, it’s really been the underlying direction of my journey all along. And, yeah, so I hear what you’re saying about that. And it feels like we can get, you know, we get, I remember, attending a silent retreat with Ardea. And during that silent retreat, I had this time where I was sitting, it was omega in New York, I don’t know if you’ve been there, I haven’t gotten the word is this. Yeah, this is particular little pine forest, it’s kind of a circle of pines, with an empty space, you know, place in between, and I’m sitting there and I just had this really beautiful sort of coming together of something, just I just have this knowing of how the two are one. And that was the beginning of this coming together of emptiness and form for me. And I felt it as this experience in my heart. And I came back and I had the opportunity to ask rd about it. But you know, I said, you know, I have known emptiness all my life, it seems like I’ve known emptiness all my life. And I’ve known form all my life. And I just felt how, how they came together right here. And, of course, I mean, we had a lovely dialogue from that. But from that moment on, that particular thing started really growing in me, like, it started to come alive in so many ways and be seen that way. In, you know, my experience has started to become about that about the meeting of these two, in a way that I could experience in my heart and in my body in certain visceral way.

RICK: Did it impact your behavior at all? I mean, when you were in the emptiness phase, did it make you more withdrawn or aloof or disinterested or anything? And then when you when you integrated it more, did it change your outward behavior?

AMEETA: Yeah, that’s a great question. You know, I’m very early on on the journey. I, I was totally that was a part of me, that felt like it had exhaust, there was no motivation left in terms of everything that my life had been about. So I sort of came into the journey into the formally into the spiritual path, at the point where I had lost all my motivation for the life I had lived prior, prior, you know, prior to the journey. So that is one way in which I’ve, you know, that manifested. And then that continued, I just wasn’t feeling interested. I’m, you know, I’m a mother and my wife. And so there was that part of my life. And I could I could do the thing I was I, for my daughter’s sake, and so on. I was I was so sure, like, carry on that aspect of my life. But inside of me, there was really no juice in it at all. And so I was leading this life, this inner life that was so much more rich, and for me so much more compelling. So what started to happen more and more was the two started coming together like I’ve I could see the what felt like, very separate things in my life, you know, that almost felt like there was certain rules for how I must appear on the external in society. And then there were my free space inside where I can experiment, all this that’s going on inside me that I don’t know, when the territory began to merge, but it did begin to merge, and something started to loosen up. And there was more translation from that inner space into the outer realm, into my social interactions and so on, there was a freedom, I think, which started coming in where I didn’t feel like I had to restrict myself to certain expressions, or I wouldn’t, you know, wouldn’t be allowed or what there were certain ideas about about that, yeah, which got busted along the way.

RICK: How old is your daughter?

AMEETA: Oh, she’s 27. Well,

RICK: raising her most help to keep you grounded.

AMEETA: I cannot be I’m so grateful for I’m so grateful for having my, just a regular life, that, that kept me grounded and kept things real. And also, my, my whole interest in spirituality was driven by this, I seemed to want something that, that that translated into living, that was always very important for me. And so just having this life where I could test in small ways, you know, it wasn’t even so much of a decision, that’s how it was playing out, I would have some realization or some insight, and immediately, I would get to see how real it was, in the next interaction with my husband and my daughter, you know, with all the things that I was doing. So it felt like it was such a help, it was fine tuning something

RICK: that’s really good. You know, a lot of the spiritual traditions have been maintained by monks and, and they put a certain spin on it in terms of and almost made, people who are not monks feel like they’re second class citizens or something, you know, because they’re not, you know, going for the gusto the way the monks are. But monks can get very imbalanced and out of touch, and, you know, idiosyncratic and obsessive and eccentric, and, and all that. And, in a way, which you’re not allowed to, if you’re in, you know, in a family situation the way you are, because you’re interacting with other people, and they’re gonna call you on it, or pretty much force you to get real, if you if you’re not

AMEETA: invited. And my daughter used to have a line, because, you know, I’d get angry with her something. She said, Mama, that’s not very spiritual, you know? Because she knew I was, you know, a doctor, or sometimes about the stuff I was reading or experiencing. She was one to catch me each time, which is that that’s not very spiritual.

RICK: Yeah, yeah. Just say it’s a little bit of your, your Shiva opening his third eye and better watch out, it’ll bring you to a crisp.

AMEETA: Exactly. Yeah, I think you were about, I continue. I was just gonna say you’re talking with the monks. And,

AMEETA: you know, I feel so grateful, I feel so grateful for the different kinds of paths and emphasis that we have in each path, because I think it all builds on each other. You know, it’s because perhaps because the monks in from various traditions, were able to devote all that energy and time and attention to something so deep that we stand on their shoulders, you know, and, and, you know, and we stand on each other, you know, how I mean, it’s like, I do feel these things supported each other at levels below the surface, yes. That allow each one to be each different things to be explored. Deeply, more deeply. Yeah.

RICK: If we think of Rupert Sheldrake is morphogenetic fields, if you’ve ever read about that, but basically, it’s the idea of sort of deep field of consciousness or collective consciousness and so on. And, you know, what you’re saying is we all contribute to that field in various ways, and all these different traditions have, have enriched it in each in their own way. And now, you know, with the internet, and with all the modern communications, the the interchange has become much more manifest, you know, and I think there’s something there’s some kind of hybrid coming out of it all that’s maybe in a way, an evolution from the ancient traditions themselves.

AMEETA: Yeah. Yeah, I do feel like there’s a lot of innovation happening. You know, like, you know, one one view is that we simply in each age, we are rediscovering what was already discovered through, you know, through all the ancient cultures and that there’s, I feel like there’s an aspect of truth to that. But that every cycle of discovery has its own contribution to the whole, you know. And so I feel like I experienced these times as so innovative spiritually. I mean, there’s so much going on. And Rick, you’re showing in no small part is contributing to the, to the, sort of the spreading of these views and perspectives. So I’m doing what

RICK: we can, yeah. Yeah. And, you know, there’s, there’s a saying only a new seed can yield a new crop. And yet, there’s that other saying nothing is new under the sun. So, you know, there’s all this ancient stuff. But, you know, we’ve been talking about integration and having to sort of integrate the inner experience with the outer. And I think that, you know, whatever wisdom there may be in these ancient traditions, and there’s a lot of it. It’s not necessarily perfectly adapted to modern times, and there has to be an integration and an adjustment in order for the full value of it to be utilized in a very different culture than the cultures in which these things originated.

AMEETA: Right, right. And that’s what I feel like, you know, so many modern spiritual traditions really have this open space, where new things can emerge, new, new ways of everything is in one sense, and we’re just reinventing what is already here, in one sense, and yet, so much creativity can happen, you know, so many new things can emerge. New forms and structures can emerge, new ways of receiving the same message can emerge. I, I really feel like that’s, that’s something that that perhaps differentiates certain, you know, an attitude towards religion versus spirituality, I think people are drawn to spirituality, because there’s that innovative, creative aspect of relevancy with the times, which sometimes, you know, we can miss out when things are deeply how shall I say, systematized in such a way that they may not be able to be questioned? And made relevant for current times? Yeah,

RICK: that makes it does and also what we were saying earlier about, you know, having you have to live your own enlightenment, somebody can’t live it for you, like, they can’t eat dinner for you. And you know, a lot of the religions emphasize, oh, this religious leader was so great. That one was so wonderful. All this saint was so fabulous. But what about, you know, what about you? What about me? I mean, you know, whatever they experienced isn’t gonna do us a heck of a lot of good unless we also experienced it. And I think that’s what they wanted. You know, they didn’t want to just say, believe what I say they wanted, they were really saying experience what I’m experiencing. Yeah. Cuz that’s where the, you know, that’s where the juice is to use a word used earlier there.

AMEETA: Yeah, exactly. Yeah.

RICK: There’s something we discussed earlier that we could flesh out a little bit more. You’re just talking about how, as you progressed over the years, you know, there was definitely a growth taking place. But it’s hard to tell exactly. You know, what, how much growth there has been, because there’s really not a big contrast from day to day. And another thing you were saying about how, you know, fear and how there’s a sort of a deep fear, and there may be other deep things, but fear is one of the most fundamental. And we can’t just necessarily say, All right, I’m tired of that, I’m letting go of it. Because it’s much deeper than that. And so, I don’t think people should feel there’s anything wrong with them, if they can’t just sort of snap out of, you know, the condition they’re in and be enlightened or be awake or something. And there are teachers who sort of speak as though they should be able to do that. But I think there’s really a developmental process that has to take place, which is, you know, not only psychological, but neuro physiological and the whole, the whole mind body system has to be cultured over time in order to support the kind of experience that we’re talking about.

AMEETA: Yeah, I couldn’t agree more. I, I feel like there’s, you know, I’ve heard you talk about it on your shows require you talk about certain amount of a level of preparation that the body mind needs to be in in order for this, what may be recognized or realized in an instance still has to translate into into time and space. And so there’s both the aspect of having a certain readiness and body mind to be able to have that happen. And then there’s also the aspect of this thing itself is Infinite. And so it has infinite expressions. And even after the body mind is prepared or ready in a certain way, you know, this will be an ongoing thing, you know, because it’s constantly has room to express more and more deeply and more fully. So there’s, I feel like there’s both of that. And I, you know, I do have a lot of empathy for people who, who may be in situations where they receive a message where they, you know, it’s like, even in spirituality, we can get, we can get taken up by the mind can hijack actually our own internal attitude to to life in general and cast it in the same really just transferred into our attitude towards spirituality. In other words, we can get really harsh with ourselves. If we are not doing things right, the meditation right or, you know, if you’re not having certain realizations when they should occur, we can get pretty harsh with ourselves. So I, I just feel a lot of empathy for seekers, you know, who have, it feels to me a tough job sometimes.

RICK: Yeah. marshy, Mahesh Yogi used to have this phrase he always used he said, take it easy. Take it as it comes. Yeah, in other words, you know, good luck, try to storm the gates of heaven, but just that you have to sort of have to be certain natural know, certain going with the flow. And obviously, there’s nothing wrong with intensity of, of motivation. Yeah, but there’s so many stories of people who just thought that they were just going to get enlightened in a week or a month or something and just end up suffering a mental breakdown, because they, they push too hard. In fact, audio talks about that. He said, he reached a point where he thought he was gonna crack up, he left some retreat that he had been on because he thought he just couldn’t do it anymore. He went home and kind of gave up in a way, but then boom, he had this big awakening when he finally relaxed.

AMEETA: Yeah, that’s a great story. Yeah. I know it well. Yeah. Yeah. And talking about the fear and sort of, not not needing to expect for any of us that things are just going to drop out. And they may for some, but there’s so much depth to all of these issues, I mean, we can look at it in sort of us, horizontal way where the fear is either there or not, or we can look at it in terms of to what degree the fear may have left, and keep, keep going deeper still, because there might be and there usually are layers and layers of fear that can exist, you know, deeper in ways that are still unconscious. So I do feel like it’s about almost excavating, some things may leave us very quickly, you know, for each one, some, for each one of us, the journey is different. And for some of us certain things can drop out of the system far, far more easily than other things might. Yeah. You know, so it’s really it. There’s a process aspect to this that cannot be overlooked. I feel

RICK: you may have heard that phrase in the Upanishads. That certainly all fear is born of duality. And I think what that phrase means is that, you know, at the very, very root of the sort of transition from unity to diversity, there’s a kind of a sound barrier of fear that one has to break in order to make the transition back to Unity. A lot of people report that their report this, I’ve told the story before, but when Chuck Yeager first broke the sound barrier, no one had done it before, and they didn’t know what was going to happen and, and the plane was like shaking and shaking, and you know, and then finally, he broke through and it all got smooth, just cruising along. So a lot of people report this kind of a thing, that there’s this kind of turbulence or sometimes very intense fear that arises as they’re making that transition. I was listening to this guy, maybe I’ll interview him some time. So just listening this morning, who, when he was a child, he clearly remembered where what what happened before he took birth. And then he remembered and eventually he lost the memory, but then he regained it when he started meditating when he’s about 30. And he remembered the whole process of coming into this life and at a certain point, there was firstly, this veiling that got thicker and thicker and thicker and thicker, you know, just kind of covering up the, you know, blinding and basically, but then at certain point, there was also the introduction of this really root fear that he started to feel, you know, before he kind of really became a fetus in the womb. It’s kind of the same thing we’re talking about, but from the other direction.

AMEETA: Right? Yeah, and I can really relate to that, because one of the things that I had to really see at a deeper level, what my fears were about was coming to body at all. Yeah, I, you know, just coming into human body into this form was something I didn’t realize I had been fearing so intensely within my form that it carried a fear, it was visceral. And that was part of the discovery that that emerged from my illness, which is, you know, I knew that all along, and it had been addressed. But I didn’t realize the depth at which that fear was held, just coming into form, I just wanted to apparently not come into form at all, I was comfortable, just go in the,

RICK: what this guy said is true. I think, hardly anybody wants to come into form. I mean, you sort of want to, because it’s a precious opportunity, and it’s necessary for evolution. But on the other hand, it’s, it’s a heck of a culture shock to go from the state of Oregon prior to form down into a form.

AMEETA: Right, right. And what it can mean, for each of us have me contacted because there’s, you know, we can talk of it as a, it’s a collective thing, we can all relate to that. But I think it might have a very personal flavor to it. For each one of us, when we actually encounter it, in our experience, you know, like, it’s like the same thing as fear of death. But this is the fear of life is interesting, you know, the fear of being informed, and it can take on really particular tones. And I, I found that it was so useful for me to contact that and to learn how it wanted to show up and how it wanted to release it, you know, a lot came to the fore from that. So I think it’s a big one for each one to encounter. Is

RICK: this interesting, I never really thought of it that way I sort of had, but you put it so clearly, you know, mostly, mostly people talk about fear of death. But then the flip side is fear of life. Fear of coming into it, you know, most of the people who have near death experiences all say that they didn’t want to come back, you know, it’s like, Oh, really? Do I have to go back into that, you know, clunky, old, tiny thing compared to what I’m experiencing now?

AMEETA: Yeah, yeah. And that, you know, we’ve probably heard, both, all of us listening on the show probably have heard of so many spiritual teachers talk about the courage to stake it takes for us to be in human form. And this at this time, perhaps at all times, but particularly now, you know, I think that’s the same thing. It’s like something is really having to summon a lot of courage to take human form, period, and human form at this time? Well, it’s really fraught with challenges as we know.

RICK: Yeah. And, and you and I have it pretty good. I mean, you know, we have decent education, and we got comfortable life and good food and all that stuff. But I often think about all the people in the world for whom life is such a struggle, and, you know, yes, it’s a shame that there has to be.

AMEETA: Yeah. Yeah. And so it’s always been really a great interest to me of how the spiritual path that I felt so drawn to results of so many years, how was it going to, because simultaneously, I have this, you know, I keep in touch with the politics of the day, and so on. And I’m really interested in social socio political, political issues. And so I’ve always, also, there’s been a part of me, that’s sort of, you know, been interested to see how those two come together, like, what is going on? And how do they come together? And that’s been a part of how my contemplation and inquiry, which is, you know, how does spirituality translate into living in in our world, you know, and how can I now that I want to share more actively in the world? How can I make How can I bring that to the fore more, because this is a concern for many, for many, and many people. And I’m finding the need to speak to this more and more, you know, I’ve been sharing in small groups for a while, and something has shifted, because in the way I’m sharing, there’s much more, much more of this element creeping up about, about how spirituality and our living situation the world today, can come closer together in you know, and we don’t have to reach some final stage in our spiritual journey for that to start happening.

RICK: That’s good, because nobody has like,

AMEETA: right, exactly. Even that idea for final stage, right? I mean, we don’t have to hold off because because I feel like these times are calling for, for more of for more action by people who are more and more in touch with their true nature. So I think that this is a great time for us to be more active. in small ways, it doesn’t have to be in big ways, but just even in terms of how we are living our individual lives. I think that’s

RICK: yeah, what more do you have to say about that in terms of The societal or political socio political implications of spirituality?

AMEETA: Well, for me, you know, after I’ve been, I’ve been researching this for more than a decade, and what I’ve really come down to what it’s boiled down to at this point in my life is really very simple. I think that an individual has more power than we believe, you know, and that, what we, what we say yes to, and what we say no to a may seem very trivial, but it has an enormous impact, you know, what we are joining with our Yes, and what we are not joining, not contributing to with our know, is the way that we exercise what we know to be true in the most powerful way, you know, and this is something that, that that can translate them into more visible and bigger movements on the in the external world, or it may stay simple and kind of fried, much smaller, smaller scale inside one’s own life. Either way, I think it’s of great importance to, to, to really be conscious of what we are saying yes to and what we are saying no to, you know, I know, this sounds probably simplistic from where I started with the socio political thing, but I have learned, for me, it was not just about it was about how can I, how can for me to discover, how can I be impactful? You know, how can I be impactful in a way that that is true for me, and which, where I can connect the dots, and this is what I have come to, you know, and tomorrow, it may translate into my joining some movement, I don’t know, I don’t know how it but for now, this is what it’s how it’s playing out, which is that I’m bringing this aspect to what when I share this sensitivity about combining spirituality, with our, with the state of our world, in some ways. And also being really conscious of what I’m saying yes to in what I’m saying no to in my life in small things to big things, you know, and just, you know, falling, stumbling and doing all that, but thinking, you know, just having that as sort of a guiding.

RICK: So as examples, saying yes, or saying no. Would you use sort of Gandhi’s movement in, in gaining Indian independence, or Martin Luther King’s efforts in ending segregation, as examples of sort of not being submissive anymore? Just not just saying, Yes, this can continue forever, but, you know, in a non violent way, saying, Nope, enough of that, we’re gonna have to change things now.

AMEETA: Yeah, I’m so inspired by Gandhi, I’m just so inspired by what he was able to do with such love. But also, I feel like another part of what he did, which is so inspiring for me, is that he was able to really utilize and leverage the strength of the ordinary human being ordinary Indian, towards a purpose that was in everyone’s hearts. But, you know, just the ordinary ability of everyone to be able to join the satyagraha marches, you know, the marches, the protest marches. A simple it, of course, it did require courage, because there is lots of charges. And the the British forces often responded in ways that were not that violent. So it certainly took a courage, but there was just there was something really beautiful about his appeal to every single Indian, to call upon that, which was their deepest aspiration, which was in Indian independence, and utilize it like that. He wasn’t looking for people with guns, he wasn’t looking for people with some extraordinary powers to, you know, and relying on those, but just what everyone has in themselves, you know, and calling upon that and saying, If you value Indian independence, here’s how you can participate. And that, that feels like, just beautiful to me and inspires me for every, you know, for even for the state of the world that we are in today. It’s that kind of thing where everyone, no matter what your level of realization is, or whatever you’re doing in life, you know, if you can, if you are troubled by the state of our world, and and if you want the world to be a certain way, then then I think it behooves us to sort of start practicing that, you know, and you see that in, in the way that we’re so polarized in our political views and so on. You know, one side is hating the other the other side is hating doesn’t matter which side they’re on, you know, yeah. And, and I feel like that’s again where people We’re on the spiritual journey might have a special little thing to bring in, which is, which is why do we have to hate hate the other side, I mean, I don’t agree with, you know, I don’t agree with you, I have my political views. But it’s really been an exercise for me to, to, to really be able to watch the other side, you know, and, and not agree, not even sort of condone, but to really come to a place inside me of ease with it of a place where I’m not literally sort of cringing in my seat, and there’s a feeling in me that feels resistant, and it feels has a certain energetic quality and my body is in a certain way, and having that sort of lose, and every time I will often deliberately watch or listen to the opposite political viewpoint and, and do treat that like an experiment within myself to see and allow what I know to be true. To kind of play itself out in my mind body as I’m receiving this thing that I don’t agree with,

RICK: see if you can watch it and maintain your discernment without getting triggered.

AMEETA: Yeah, and also allow that sort of that love to see, I’m interested to see where the love goes, you know, like, what is it now? And what is what is it translating into, you know, like, how is it feeling? And what is it feeling towards this person? So, I, you know, I think it’s a great way for us to really test out what we, what we recognized in ourselves.

RICK: One thing I, I mean, I’m like you, I sort of follow the news and the politics and various issues like climate change, and this and that. And I sometimes wonder if I didn’t have this meditation background, how I would react to these things. And I think I might very well either become depressed or furious. Or, I don’t know, I was never the violent type, but I can I can I sort of see how people would be inclined to you know, go and do something that gets them arrested. Just because these problems are so intractable and and they seem to be so many of them seem to be such clear manifestations of short sightedness and greed, and selfishness and small mindedness. You know, those kinds of qualities. For instance, I watched this documentary The other night called see spirits CSEA, spirits AC. And it was about basically about the fishing industry and what’s being done to the oceans, and about the oceans in general. And it’s like, Oh, my God, I mean, this thing alone could wipe out humanity. And then and then there’s climate change, which kind of is dovetailing with that and, and, but in every case, it’s like, these people who are only thinking about their next paycheck or their next meal, or, you know, their bank account regarding, with no regard for the next generation or the next seven generations or any such thing. So he can see, it’s kind of get gets me going.

AMEETA: Yeah, I mean, I, you know, I can really empathize with, you know, with that sentiment. And I also, I also feel like, like, I feel a lot of empathy for, for, for our human condition, at this time, you know, on both sides, on all sides. It’s no, like we were saying earlier, it’s no easy thing to live a human life, you know, it’s fraught with so much on both sides. I mean, it has amazing potential, but it also is fraught with so much of, you know, sorrow and suffering. And, and not just not just in terms of what we experienced, but what we can’t contribute to almost choiceless Lee, you know, I mean, if we think about it, we, you know, we’re not really all that much in control, to some extent we are and I feel like human beings, you know, at this point where I am, at this time, I just feel a real love for humanity and for for sort of a sense of, of our frailty of our, it’s like life has been using the human form to conduct an experiment. And how could we have evolved any differently, you know, because everything that happens, you know, from being on from having our own realizations, we know that everything is life expressing itself, right. So even the best of our behaviors and the worst of them are all life expressing its intelligence through us. And you know, we have this freewill. And through our free free will, we’re able to have all these experiences and make all these choices. He says, but so it seems like this choice and like humans are making a choice, and we are. And yet behind it, you know that life is making spirit God, however you want to call that. So I just feel it feels to me like, on the one hand, we must take responsibility, because we’ve obviously done things which are, which are not helping the planet or not helping the ways or not helping any race, any species on our planet. So it’s, it’s definitely not going well. But on the other hand, I think we have to have some, some sympathy for ourselves to, From this viewpoint that. So there is a way in my my world where we can take responsibility without blame, you know, and do what we have to do, call it what it needs to be called. But then kind of work from that long. Because what if, what are the attitude we hold? What is the attitude we hold is, is even more important than the action we undertake? You know, so I feel, I feel like, I just feel this draw. And I want to say that one of the ways in which I really came to this displace in myself is, and I’m bringing sort of a tangential thing in here, but I do want to say that is is is that being? Yeah, yeah, you know, taking walks, and I’ve been for the last five years, I’ve been having this feel deep communion with nature, and I go for walks, and I, I commune with tree and with mountain and bark, and so on. And it’s a way for us to, for me, to get really like my ear to the ground, you know, and sort of sensing the currents of, I don’t know what how to put it, but it’s like the universe is talking to us when we you know. And so there’s this the news and everything that I read, and then there’s this much larger sense and picture of life, I get, like, I’m putting my ear to a much vaster source. And I’m seeing things in a perspective that just the news alone, would would never would never give me right. And, and this might sound really odd, but it’s like, I’m here, what I’m one thing that I’m hearing, is this forgiveness, also from nature towards humans, you know, because on the one hand, we are destroying forests, and trees and everything in nature. And yet, perhaps life has this understanding that how could human life have evolved in any differently, I don’t know, that it could have. And if we take that view, then what remains to be done is to take responsibility without blame, and to do what each one of us can do, to our very best. And, you know,

RICK: I’m kind of reminded of Christ forgiving the guys who were nailing into the cross, you know, yesterday, having been Good Friday, but so it’s definitely I can, I can imagine Nature saying Forgive them, Father, they know not what they do. But nonetheless, they are doing, I mean, he was being crucified after all, and the environment is being destroyed, after all, and something’s got to change. And one, one kind of idea that we’ve been flirting around here with and haven’t quite expressed, is that and many, many people say this, that there is some kind of a big fundamental shift happening now in the world. And, you know, it’s some kind of global spiritual awakening. And there are people who articulate it very beautifully. And who also kind of outlined various trajectories, it could take, you know, some of them really good in the long run, some of them disastrous, depending on how we play our cards. But I do think that, you know, what, like, when I watched that documentary about the ocean, the other night, I thought, you know, on the level of passing laws, and getting governments to do the right thing, and getting businesses to do the right thing, it’s hopeless. That’s it, they’re never gonna do it. And so, you know, something I’ve felt for 50 years is, there really has to be a shift in consciousness. Consciousness is the most fundamental thing and it’s the only level from which it has the most leverage of any any level. And if we can, if that can really awaken in the world, then all these other things will kind of fall into place, governments will just miraculously start making the right decisions and businesses will say, what were we thinking? Let’s do it this way instead, you know,

AMEETA: yeah. Yeah, I I agree with you. I feel that way too. And I do feel like something is something is happening because even even like from the in the last 10 years to now, you know, I think that people are in a place we are all in a place Where, what things are coming spiritually speaking more easily to offer this time? You know, they’re they’re hitting the mark in us more easily perhaps than even 10 to 20 years ago. It feels like that, like, you know, that there’s something that’s ripening to understand and to connect with deeper place inside us. And that’s life working. It’s working from, from that perspective, which you mentioned, which is, you know, I think we need to up the consciousness on this planet a little and so that things can start to resolve and get resolved. Because I really agree that I feel like that’s the place where, where it can be changed from and that is, that’s the only place you know, because that’s going to govern, how we, the actions we take and how we take them. Yeah.

RICK: And there’s strength in numbers. You know, the more people who do it, the easier it’ll be to do. Yeah, like you were saying, with Gandhi, getting all the people on board with his efforts. I think there’s something of that nature happening more and more with spirituality, it’s just, you know, becoming more of a global phenomenon that, you know, was completely unheard of, for practically unheard of back in the 40s. And 50s. You know, maybe you had Yogananda and some people had heard of Ramana Maharshi. But it was just nothing compared to what then became later in the 60s, and then onward. And, you know, these even in the 60s, it was quite innovative. And nowadays, you know, it’s, it’s really taken off. And that gives me hope.

AMEETA: Yeah, me too. Me too. Honestly. Part of my sort of yearning and part of my, where I find myself right now is to, is to talk of, to talk of spirituality, or are the things that we recognize, so spirit, spirituality, more and more ordinary ways, in more and more ordinary language. One of the things I found for myself is like I became used to a spiritual language, you know, how we can all become part of this thing, where we are watching the same teachers and having the same thing said in pretty much the same ways. And we get used to a language of talking about spiritual experiences. And, and for people who are not familiar with that language. It’s not It’s like another language. And it’s kind of, you know, it takes a little while to learn that language. And I’m finding that the, what feels really apparent and noticeable to me is like, the yearning for our depth, feels like people are wearing it on their face nowadays, or, you know, at least I feel

RICK: like spirituality is one.

AMEETA: No, just the yearning to discover nature, like, you know, people It feels to me, like, when people are doing all kinds of things that they’re doing, I just send some a greater anyway I can, I feel like I can connect, Rick with with seeing that all of those things which are appearing as ordinary longings, and yearnings are connected to something which is much deeper in them. And that’s the yearning to connect with our authentic self, our real self. And

RICK: do you see that really proliferating? Do you?

AMEETA: Yeah, I do I do. And how do you see

RICK: the media or things you read? Or how are you aware of social media? How are you aware of that?

AMEETA: If you look at ailments like depression, anxiety, and you know, the addictions, that we’re having rampant addictions, and so on, and, to me, that’s a cry for help, a cry for something so much deeper than what they’re what it’s translating to in terms of substance or in terms of, you know, the emotional setup, you know, it’s like something is calling much deep from much deeper within to be recognized. So, for me, all these things are really deep indications of a much deeper yearning, you know, and we’re seeing such a proliferation of all that, but also in terms of how people, I don’t know, this is my experience. You know, I think people are just tired of what’s happening in the world, and it’s bringing to light you know, when things are all really comfortable, and life is going really well perhaps we are less connected with that deep aspiration for what is really true, because what is not so true is fine, it’s comfortable, but when you know, but when things are not comfortable, I think that’s one of the one of the things that grace about challenging situations is that it really starts to bring to the fore, this yearning of ours which is otherwise lying kind of dormant, which is a yearning to connect with something more true more real like this questions of what is really going on, you know, what is going on? So anyways, I feel like spiritual you know, the, the one thing I would like to do through my work is to really talk about deep spiritual concepts or or experiences but in ways that people can relate with, even if they don’t know the language, even if they, you know, even if they sort of, even if they don’t purport to be on a spiritual journey. So

RICK: how have you begun to do that? Or how would you do that?

AMEETA: Yeah, one of the things I, I am doing is I, you know, a program that I’m offering is sort of one of the examples of that, it’s a program called beyond thinking mind. And, in this program, the idea is, is, is just to enable people to come into contact with the sense of there being something much faster and deeper than thinking mind. And if so, it doesn’t have to be a deep spiritual realization that we’re looking at, or it could be, but just the idea that we’re so our perspectives have become so boxed in with just thinking as they are only most, our most predominant way of knowing is thinking, you know, and we’re not so much in touch with our other ways of knowing, sensing, feeling, you know, imagining intuiting having, you know, all these things, you know, it’s there’s so many ways in which human beings No, can know. So it feels to me like we are we are reality, life is giving us abundantly, and we’re going to the ocean with a cup. No, and, you know, and then, and then we’re all suffering, because we believe we believe that the scarcity, you know, that there’s so much this scarcity, consciousness, you know, where we am grappling with that. And so for me, this program, and what I would like to offer by in similar programs is a way of connecting with that in us, which can receive life abundantly, because the issue is not that life is not abundant, the issue is that we are going to life with a, with a cup, you know, with a small, you know, without thinking minds alone, and trying to have everything, come to us through that little vessel, which is an amazing, beautiful, powerful thing. But it’s still really small compared with our capabilities and our true potential. So through this program, what I’m trying to do is just introduce people to, you know, our hearts, our bodies, you know, nature, you know, things like that, that, that I feel, that I feel, can really open us up to a greater appreciation of our own capabilities to take in life and to receive everything that life has given us.

RICK: That’s great, very well put. Yeah, I mean, essentially, what we are is an unbounded ocean of potentiality. You know, energy, intelligence, creativity, bliss. And, you know, and like you say, though, we’re just sort of taking a little tiny cup full of time. But the body is the portal, the whole mind body system is the portal through which we can actually become aware of that unbounded field, and integrate it so that we have constant access to it. We are it constantly as our individual, we are the ocean as the wave as our individual wave continues to play about on the surface. Yeah, I mean, that’s not a new idea. People have been talking about that kind of thing for a long, long time. But like you say, I think, people, it’s time for people to wake up to it more universally.

AMEETA: Yeah. And in simple ways, you know, and just simple ways, like, there’s so much to be gained from just a small shift of perspective also, you know, because we’re really used to, we love ideas and thinking mind is, so it’s such an attractive thing. And, you know, it also brings about this real disembodied kind of life where we can be so disembodied and taken over. To me, it explains a lot of how we are functioning socially to, you know, because we can be carried away so easily by ideas, we’re so susceptible to ideas from one side coming in grabbing us in an idea, you know, just this, if you look at what’s going on with social media, and the ability of influencers and the kind of influence these influencers have, by a one minute message in some way. And social media, to me is tied with this, you know, it’s like, when we’re not grounded in the body, when we’re not connected with something more stable. And our only frame of references, the shifting the shifting thing, which is our mind, you know, we can easily be grabbed by the latest idea or something that has some appeal to us. And this is so rooted, it’s not rooted.

RICK: Yeah, that’s an interesting point. I mean, that we won’t dwell on it because I’ve dwelled on it too much. But that gets us into the whole conspiracy theory idea where, you know, they’re not grounded and, and they’re their brain washable, you know, they’re susceptible, they, they hear some, they get something in the social media sort of, you know, the algorithm guides them into focusing on it more and more. Next thing, you know, they’re, they’re just totally hypnotized by, by it, it’s really kind of a problem in society these days.

AMEETA: It is. And we have this kind of a little bit of a bias about, you know, thinking mind, I mean, in terms of, we are biased towards rationality, you know, and we’re looking at this in terms of, you know, spirituality being as coming to the realm of the non rational for many people that can be construed as irrational instead of, instead of perhaps post rational, you know, and this is something that Ken Wilber really brings very beautifully to the fore and, and his whole pre post fallacy thing, you know, where it says, so that’s another point, which I just want to, you know, that’s something that I really want to be able to share through my work is this whole idea that, you know, the kind of stuff that you are talking about most of the time, we can, what we’re talking about now is not about opposing rationality, it’s about including it and going beyond rationality. Right? I mean, it’s it’s a to a post rationality that is capable of including much more, and rationality Yeah,

RICK: it can only take you so far. But you certainly never have to abandon it. It just has its function.

AMEETA: And so in those wars, sometimes we see this attitude that everything is all of the non rational is lumped together and sort of put under one bracket of crazy spiritual woowoo stuff or something like that, you know, it’s all kind of combined with the shadier aspects of what might truly be pre rational. And so I think there’s a lot to be looked at. Yeah.

RICK: And, you know, the, the really great spiritual teachers, Shankara, Buddha and others, they definitely didn’t downplay rationality. I mean, they, they were clearly talking about something that transcends the intellect. But they also emphasized using the intellect to think in a discriminating way. Shanker Shanker wrote that book The Vivica to demonic the crest jewel of discrimination. And it’s so obvious how person can get off the track if they fail to sharpen that instrument. So many examples.

AMEETA: Yeah. Oh, yeah, I really relate with that. You know, I mean, even speaking of, you know, we were talking earlier about the gradual path. And

RICK: good. I wanted to come back to that. Yeah.

AMEETA: Yeah, so one thing, I think, you know, keeping with this thing we’re talking about is what audio would often do for me, is, in his teachings by his articulating something clearly, what would happen for me is that my mind would become conscious and catch up to an experience or an understanding that was already there in interesting. Yeah. But but the fact of the mind registering that would become really powerful, because then it would be like, 100% of me could join that. Does that make sense? Totally. So I really, I really feel like the mind has a big part to the intellect and the mind has a big part to play in, in sharpening the consciousness we can bring to something, you know, because the body can be conscious, you know, and the mind can still not be conscious. So often, I think it’s a it’s a case of the mind doing playing, let it catch up. Oh, yeah.

RICK: And sometimes the other way around, sometimes people are kind of, they’re a little top heavy in terms of their reading and thinking and all without enough experience. But I really feel like a balanced development involves both and the two of them sort of keeping abreast of one another mind and in understanding and experience, they like the two legs, which we walk on. Right. Oh, and about this gradual versus direct thing? Yeah, go ahead. I’ve never, I mean, I’ve been in panel discussions and debates and all kinds of stuff about the direct versus, versus progressive paths. And I never actually, I know there’s a thing called I mean, what I’m trying to say is, I’ve never actually seen an example of a direct path leading one directly to any kind of full realization. I mean, sure, in a way you can start a meditation practice and have a direct experience of pure consciousness from day one. But then you’ve got decades of progress yet to make while you continue to deepen and integrate that experience. So I don’t know if there’s really a conflict between direct and progressive paths. It seems to me that there are just two aspects of any any path that actually works?

AMEETA: Yeah, I don’t see any conflict really. To me, it feels more like the essential realm of deep realization is timeless and spaceless. And so, you know, that happens timelessly and spaces. But eventually, that in order for it to express in its counterpart of form, because form is nothing but account of what emptiness as a counterpart, I mean that for language and music. So when emptiness translates into form, how can it you know, it translate, it has to translate in, in the dimensions of time and space as far as we are concerned, as best as we know. And so it’s going to take, you know, but, but what time and space in the way we realize it is a stretching of the here and now, you know, to me, space is the stretching of now and ties, I mean, time is a stretching of now, and spaces, the stretching of here. And so what was recognized instantly has to now play itself out, stretch itself out in time and space. So I really don’t see any contradiction between,

RICK: essentially what you said about how, you know, you hear something from Aga, and you gain a certain understanding. And you suddenly realize, oh, that has actually been my experience, I didn’t didn’t even realize it, you know, until I had the understanding. So not to belabor this point too much. But this is one example of how knowledge or understanding supplements and supports the experiential development, it actually enables you to recognize something you’re already experiencing, which you hadn’t even recognized.

AMEETA: Right. And then, of course, because we now have so much spiritual information, accessible at one finger click, we can go the other way to where we have a lot of knowledge. We can learn about traditions, and we can learn about all you know, you can be really up to speed on everything spiritual, but I’m not experienced much of it ourselves at all. So then it’s the other like you were saying the other part of that has to do the catch up job. So the experience has to catch up to the knowledge.

RICK: Yeah, I was listening to Swami Satrapi Ananda last night, and he was telling the story about this Swami Torian on the Ji, who was an old man, very enlightened, and he had all kinds of health problems. He had these boils on his body that had to be lanced, and very painful thing. He refused any kind of local anesthetic. And, you know, and, but he was just sort of beyond it. And then one day, he had some procedure done, the doctor started, he said, Oh, what are you doing? And the doctor said, I thought you didn’t feel this stuff. He said, No, you got to tell me first. So I can sort of transcend and go beyond it. But then there was this other guy who had seen his example of what he was doing. And he had to have some kind of operation on his stomach or something that he said, No, no, no, I’m not the body. I don’t need to have any anesthetic. He won’t bother me. So the doctor started cutting. He said, No, no, wait, stop. And, you know, I need the anesthetic. And the doctor said, I thought you can go beyond it. And he said, You know, I’ve just been reading too many books and knowledge in the book stays in the books, I need the anesthetic. It’s not my experience.

AMEETA: Yeah. I think that, you know, sometimes it’s interesting for me to see this because there are people who can sometimes have this notion that somehow wellness spiritual evolution must go hand in hand with some sort of idea of physical wellness, you know, and I feel like there’s a suddenly a correlation there. But I think it can sometimes be taken too far, you know, like, out of context, because the body ultimately has to die. And so, you know, nothing’s

RICK: gonna kill us. We’re gonna Yeah, reality of it. Yeah, like Ramana Maharshi, had cancer and all kinds of Nisargadatta, I think died of cancer. And so I think there is a correlation between greater health and spirituality. But there are obviously exceptions to that, that are, you know, even not only old age, but some people are very highly enlightened and have severe health problems for years and years.

AMEETA: I mean, there is a certain, you know, I can, I can understand, I can see how that can be an invitation to to delve deeper. I mean, if there’s some aspect of the body that’s not working, that’s not functioning, and there’s pain or that’s a great, that’s an invitation to look deeper, because there’s usually something to be seen there. But I think to get stuck in an idea that if I’m, if I’m ill, or then then there’s something that’s wrong or missing is what I’m speaking about. Like, I think it’s not necessary to have that idea because that can be a real obstacle.

RICK: I think that one explanation that might be offered is that you know, there’s probe the karma, which we come into this life with, and it’s just going to do, it’s just going to run its course. But then you know, there’s also new, I forget the name for it, you might know that there’s new karma, which we might create or not create, depending on how we play our cards. And, you know, we can, there’s certain things we have to go through. But there are other things that we just cause ourselves to go through, perhaps unnecessarily. And, you know, this gets us into the realm of freewill, which some people deny exists, but I’ve heard you talk about it. And I think it is something we do have, and it can make a big difference on how our lives unfold.

AMEETA: I do, I do think it’s one of the biggest gifts for humankind, and like any gift, it’s a double edged sword. So it has its potential to be both dangerous and extraordinary. And I feel that’s kind of the transition that transition from so, so my view of freewill, Rick is, is that we, unlike most of the most all creatures, as far as we know, on the planet, have the ability to, to take life, to live life in an other than natural way. You know, so we can choose to not align with the natural flow of life, that’s what I would call freewill, you know, that we can make choices and decisions from our mental makeup, which may seem separate a ton, you know, which may feel to us to be separate. So I really look at this spiritual journey in one in one way for me is this is the changing of freewill in a sense, like, when we come to certain by the time we come to a certain point, I think the shift that happens in us is that free will becomes used towards aligning with life much, much more, rather than aligning away from the natural flow of life, which is what we all start out with doing. So it feels to me like freewill is transitioning as we are, you know, through the spiritual journey. And there’s a conscious way in which we begin to use our freewill to align with the natural flow of life. Yeah, and that’s the piece also the the way, the individual, you know, like the whole thing about the individual, you know, we start out being an individual who considers herself or himself to be separate from everything else, life, God each other. And then at some point, we come into a realization of our essential emptiness, and then we, you know, come into this realization of we’re all one, you know, I mean, we can have these, these, these, these shifts of understanding. And I think from there, where we actually, for me, it feels like the the circling back of that is really coming back to the individual with the sovereignty we were talking about earlier. But this time around, it’s about having life expressed to us to the individual in a way that actually aligns with the flow of life. So again, you know, we can look at it in depth free will, or individual lines

RICK: is the key word there. Yeah, I was, when we talked about this subject, I was thinking about row row, row your boat gently down the stream, right. So the stream is carrying the boat along. And if you do nothing, you’re going to crash into the side, you’re just going to go off and get caught in the brambles. But you could also like get really willful about it, and I’m rowing the boat this way, I’m rowing the boat that way. And that that’ll cause you problems, because, again, crashing into things and hitting rocks and stuff. But if you just roll gently, kind of keeping tuning into where the stream is going, where the stream wants to go, and just kind of using whatever guidance you are capable of to keep the boat in the stream on track, then that then it’s kind of like a frictionless flow.

AMEETA: Yeah, that’s, that’s beautiful. I love it. It’s really simple. And to the point

RICK: looks like a question came in here to couple of questions. So he put my glasses on. First one is from Pietro in urban Italy. Petra says, I feel very connected to your point of view. I think poetry, art and figurative languages may help people connect with their spiritual side. What do you think about the effort of science to study consciousness? And awareness? Are those two questions two separate questions from good? Well, once a statement was a question, okay, I read that in a little bit of a disjointed way. Let me read it one more time. I feel very disconnected, very connected to your point of view. I think poetry, art and figurative languages may help people connect with their spiritual side. What do you think about the effort of science to study consciousness and awareness?

AMEETA: I love it. I think it’s wonderful. I think that science should, you know, I think science and spirituality have the same essential goal, which is to come to greater truth that science tends to do it in a more focused much more on the objective. And spirituality tends to do a focus much more on the subjective. And that I think there’s a beautiful meeting point between the two. So when science seeks to understand spirituality, more, I look forward to what they come up with, so that we can all sort of benefit from that, from that marriage. And from that, because the attitude of science is one that I find beautiful like that, that very sort of clear. Experimentation, you know, that curiosity, that particular way of, of looking at inquiring into something is something that I think, perhaps you’d agree with, that spiritual explorers are, are also doing it, but we bring that same attitude to us to our individual experience inside, right. So I feel like I, you know, I feel like my, my way of looking at my experience is pretty scientific, except that it’s subjective, you know, and so I cannot go out there and make claims that that, that then I could support in us sort of reproducing an experiment objectively outside me, that’s not possible. Not for me anyways. But you take

RICK: an empirical approach, you’re not just hanging out beliefs, you’re sort of saying, Alright, maybe this is possible. Let me see if I can experience it.

AMEETA: I’m excited about what science has to show me to

RICK: about there’s a whole category, the categorical page on that gap, where you can sort of look at various categories of the interviews. And there’s one that’s sort of spiritual science are scientists. And there’s all kinds of people in there like Dean Raiden, and Rupert Sheldrake and Marjorie Melaka, and David Lorimer, and all kinds of people like that. So Pietro might want to check out that category, because we get deep into some discussions about science and spirituality. Okay, there’s another one. From Prachi. in Torrance, California. What are your views on how to connect to the limitless information of the universe?

AMEETA: Wow, that’s an interesting way. That’s an interesting way of phrasing the question. Yeah, I would say put your ear to the ground, literally, I mean, to the ground, like, you know, great way to start would be to literally go out on walks in nature, where the influence of conditioned ways of thinking in the mind are at a minimum, and we kind of have the intention. And I think the environment supports that intention, when we go out in nature. We can think, Oh, we can access something deeper than thinking mind alone.

RICK: Yeah. And I would add that in whatever way you can tune into that field of pure consciousness, or Brahman, or Samadhi, or whatever we want to call it. That field, actually, is the repository of all the information in the universe, we could say, it’s the home of all the laws of nature. And if you can somehow align yourself or become conscious with that of that, then you will be tuned in it’s not like you will possess all the information of the universe, which you really wouldn’t want. That would be major overload. But you you can your life will flow in a way that takes full advantage of that information, even if you’re not conscious of the specifics of it.

AMEETA: And you know, there’s so many practices meditation and contemplation, inquiry, or whatever works fine.

RICK: Another question came in earlier from Dan in London. Dan was one it was about what we were talking about earlier, Dan was wondering, is fear of form fear of form, ultimately, fear of death? Because bodies are mortal?

AMEETA: I think that is, yeah, I do think that very similar. I think it’s the same fear essentially, because you know, it’s one thing really going on, but I think it’s specific in the way it can be oriented like, one to me the fear of death is essentially the fear of knowing ourselves as emptiness. And the fear of life is essentially knowing ourselves as form like, because form always in must include limitation,

RICK: limitation and time as well this form will end

AMEETA: limitation in time, exactly limitation in time and limitation in terms of expression, you know, limitation and expression and this this can also feel like a bodily limitation like like literally feeling cramped in a small space, all the way to a limitation in terms of in a bigger space. So I Great, I think there are two sides of the same fear, you know,

RICK: yeah, there’s another Upanishad, which there’s a line, which is, there’s no joy in smallness. You may have heard that one, but just that it’s our birthright to be vast, to be cosmic to be unbounded. And deep down somewhere, we know that. And if we’re not realizing it, then there’s a kind of a fundamental frustration that you know, that innate nature is being thwarted.

AMEETA: Yeah, and you know, what I’ve been coming to appreciate more and more reconstruct. There’s something really drawn here to that, to that freedom, that beautiful infinity, you know, there’s something deeply drawn, I think, for all of us, in one level, there’s a deep draw. And I’ve really started to see the enormous intelligence and beauty of have a being in human form, you know, contained as it is, and limited and fragile and with all of its issues, you know, where I went from my illness and the Taos thing and everything was to come, I feel like every day I feel more appreciative of, of this ability for this human form, where we can actually be conscious of the infinity the limitless, the boundless that we are, and, and, and, and yet be in this in this package called the human self, you know, the human mind body. At because containment, because the containment gives it a certain I say it’s like, I don’t know how to put it really, I really struggled for for how to put this, but there’s

RICK: a living reality.

AMEETA: It becomes an experiential, stable, stable reality, right? You know, and I feel somewhere that that’s, and, you know, I just, I have no proof, I can prove this, obviously, but feels to me like that, that spirits intention, like to be able to time and space are ways in which spirit gets to experience itself stably. Otherwise, without time and space. Like there’s no stability. And paradoxical Is that is that feels like when I’m tuning into these days, which is just this amazement of the human form, being able to be conscious of the limitlessness and be able to live that out and experience it stably through form. You know, when you, I think

RICK: that may be why we have a universe, basically, I mean, if there’s that famous quote from Brian Swimme, he said, you leave hydrogen alone for 14 billion years, and you end up with rose bushes, giraffes and opera. But but, you know, I think the universe could be seen as this giant evolution machine, which is constantly evolving forms, which are more and more and more capable of embodying the unboundedness. So that it becomes a living reality, rather than just an unmanifest reality. Right, and there’s great joy in that.

AMEETA: And there’s great joy in that there’s such joy in that. I just quickly wanted to say that, you know, there’s an aspect of the unbounded that can be chaotic also, right. I mean, it can be really chaotic, to have so much freedom. And so I think form is also a beautiful way in which that freedom becomes contained and can be become more, at least in the human context, responsibly used, if that makes sense. You know, so there’s this, there’s that aspect about being in human form, knowing your limitless source, and your essential unboundedness and having that translate into a responsible, responsible way of being informed, you know, which that’s attractive to me, that’s a deep draw from

RICK: because another way of putting it is it boundaries alone are stifling, you know, repressive. unboundedness alone is not livable. It’s not living reality. back but boundaries and boundless, properly integrated, becomes, you know, a marvelous opportunity for, you know, being an instrument of the Divine.

AMEETA: Absolutely, yeah. Good.

RICK: Yeah. So tell us more about, you know, what you do with people. If people are listening to this, and they want to say I want to plug in to her she offering courses does she give webinars, you know, just what does she have a mailing list? You know, what kind of things do you do?

AMEETA: All of the above? So thank you for letting me speak to

RICK: that website. We have a web from your page on back out.

AMEETA: Yeah, it’s called Moving Martin Academy and yeah, so I offer I offer long programs. I offer short courses. There’s one starting in May I offer weekly Satsang which is free of meditation session, which is free, I’m sorry, a monthly Satsang,

RICK: which is on Zoom or something.

AMEETA: Yes, it’s all on Zoom for now. And, you know, so I keep I will keep on adding courses and programs. Right now we have an ongoing program. And there’s one upcoming in what

RICK: do you do in these programs? What do you teach?

AMEETA: So yeah, so what I do is I’m sharing from, like, around all the stuff we spoke about, like, but every program or short course typically has a theme of exploration, which we sort of dive into together, which is, you know, specific to that program. So, for example, the one I have coming in May is called softening towards humanity. And it kind of touches on what we were speaking of earlier, which is this way of looking at our problems, taking responsibility without blame, you know. So that’s one, the one I’m currently doing is beyond thinking mind, and there are a few in the offing. But there’s also a monthly satsang. And so some of my offerings are free. Some of them are paid. And even for the paid one, there are scholarships. So, you know, that’s available also good.

RICK: And this can all be found on moving mountain Academy. Right. Willie, I noticed your parts of your website that are under Yeah, it’s still

AMEETA: they are, it’s a new website. So you know, we’ll be adding content and adding more stuff in the weeks and months, even now,

RICK: people can get on your email list there and then be notified as things come up.

AMEETA: Like, yes, that’s true. Great.

RICK: Well, is there anything else that you want to say they haven’t said?

AMEETA: Oh, no, I think we covered a lot of ground. Rick, I feel really grateful to you for just the show. And I just want to say, you know, when when when I first first started watching your show, I was so hungry for this kind of conversation, because I didn’t have too many places where I could have this kind of thing. So I really, you know, I say thanks to you for hosting this for so long and bringing so many of these perspectives out in the open where people who are hungry like me could go to him and listen.

RICK: Yeah, well, hopefully you’re still a little bit hungry. Yeah, totally always sated.

AMEETA: No, no, no.

RICK: It’s kind of like you can be full and hungry at the same time, can’t you?

AMEETA: Yeah, no, I know.

RICK: Good. All right. Well, thanks so much. I’m glad we finally got a chance to do this. Do you still send out emails that have those poems in them?

AMEETA: No, I don’t anymore. I discontinued.

RICK: I wondered, maybe I accidentally slipped off your list or something. No, but when I started out, put you on that I was already. Well, thanks a lot. And thanks to those who have been listening or watching and you know the drill. Go to Bat gap comm check out the menus, see what’s what, there’s all kinds of interesting things, past and future and present. So we’ll see you next time. And thanks again. Anita.

AMEETA: Thank you so much. And I want to say thanks to Irene.

RICK: Amina says thanks. You sitting right here writing something down? I don’t know what. Yeah, she’s kind of an unsung hero. Because, you know, she does as much as I do with this whole program, you know, behind the scenes, kind of organizing all kinds of things in our lives and in that gap and selecting the guests and kind of checking them out. She has good judgment about weeding out the nutcases, I guess would be one point.

RICK: Anyway, always, and our other vault, not always a few of them slip through the cracks like me. But then, we have some other wonderful volunteers to add. You might as well mention since this has come up Angel, Mark Lloyd who does our video post production, there’s volunteers page where you can see these people and links to their websites. And Larry Kelly, who does the audio post production and Jerry, Jerry bickman, who does the whole you’ve met both of these people now, and who does a marvelous job kind of getting everybody organized? Sometimes spending hours with people getting their equipment working right and all and oh, boy, so a bunch of other people who occasionally do translation. And Dan in London, Dan has been doing marvelous job making he for years. He was the guy who forwarded the questions and about a month or two ago he started making main points. So that is during the interview so that I can put main points on the, on the web page and in the email that we send out, so I couldn’t be doing all this by myself and really appreciate all the all these wonderful helpers.

AMEETA: Me too as as as viewer, so thank you so much, Rick. We’ll see

RICK: each other again, I’m sure. Maybe it’ll come up to the sand conference when we started having those again. I hope so. Yes. All right. Take care.

AMEETA: Take care. Bye.